Avoiding My Anxiously Attached Boyfriend

In this exclusive episode, we're joined by I Kissed A Girl season two's Nikita Bharath for her first ever podcast appearance. As the only contestant from the series still in a relationship, Nikita finally opens up about finding love with Pippa, keeping their relationship secret for almost a year and what really happened after the cameras stopped rolling.

From navigating multiple connections, love triangles and the final kiss-off, to building a relationship away from the cameras, Nikita reflects on her experience inside the Masseria and why taking things slowly became the foundation of her relationship with Pippa. 

The conversation then becomes deeply personal as Nikita opens up about growing up queer, reconnecting with her Indian heritage and learning to embrace every part of her identity. We discuss race, representation, spirituality, Hindu traditions, colonialism, growing up in a predominantly white environment and the impact of being labelled "the acceptable Indian" as a child.

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Faye McGrath first captured the nation's hearts on BBC's I Kissed A Girl, where her warmth, humour and vulnerability made her one of the standout personalities of the series. 
In this episode, Faye joins us to reflect on her experience on the show, navigating rejection in front of the nation and the deeper emotional journey that shaped her long before reality TV. 
From falling for Elise, feeling like she was "too nice" for reality TV and unpacking the lessons she took from I Kissed A Girl, Faye opens up about how the experience forced her to confront unresolved childhood wounds, anxious attachment and a lifelong fear of rejection.
The conversation then becomes deeply personal as Faye shares her powerful coming out story, growing up knowing she was gay, hiding her identity through school, losing her best friend after coming out and why she genuinely believed saying the words "I'm gay" would change her life forever. We also discuss OCD, ADHD, intrusive thoughts, Pure O, mental health, diabetes, vitiligo and why learning to accept love has been one of the biggest challenges of her life.
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Cain Culto is a queer artist, musician and creative whose work explores religion, spirituality, masculinity and identity. In this episode, we sit down with Cain to discuss growing up gay in the evangelical church, religious trauma, coming out, deconstructing Christianity and how he transformed years of shame into powerful music and art.

From leading worship as a young church leader and preaching against homosexuality, to experiencing psychosis, being hospitalised and undergoing an attempted exorcism, Cain opens up about one of the most difficult periods of his life. 

The conversation also explores masculinity, femininity, queer identity, Santería, indigenous spirituality, colonisation, Latino identity, ancestral healing  and why so many LGBTQ+ people are reconnecting with their culture after religious trauma. 

Whether you're interested in LGBTQ+ stories, deconstructing faith, queer culture, religion, spirituality or masculinity his conversation offers a thoughtful and honest perspective on identity, healing and self-acceptance.

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JORDY first caught the internet's attention with viral pop hits like Nice Things and Story of a Boy, but behind the infectious hooks is an artist navigating identity, masculinity and what it really means to be seen. In this episode, we're joined by singer-songwriter JORDY to talk about life as an openly gay artist, making music without compromise, and the journey behind his new album.

From writing songs inspired by dating disasters and toxic relationships, to going viral on TikTok, signing record deals and eventually going independent, JORDY reflects on the highs and lows of building a music career in an industry that still struggles to embrace openly queer male artists. 

The conversation also gets deeply personal as JORDY opens up about childhood bullying, sexual assault, anxious attachment, healing from toxic relationships and learning to stop blaming himself for his past. Along the way, we explore femininity, masculinity, topping and bottoming stereotypes, internalised homophobia and why embracing every version of yourself is the most powerful thing you can do.

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Ruben Bø Dower first caught the attention of audiences on I Kissed A Boy, but behind the iconic green looks and unforgettable fashion is a thoughtful conversation about identity, creativity and belonging. In this episode, we're joined by artist, designer and creator Ruben Bø Dower to talk about life after reality TV, finding confidence in who you are, and the journey towards self-acceptance.

From his experience on I Kissed A Boy and the show's impact on queer representation, to navigating public attention, dating apps and online criticism, Ruben reflects on how appearing on television changed his life. We discuss the importance of queer community, dating a trans man on national TV, and why representation still matters when there are so few LGBTQ+ shows being made.

The conversation also gets deeply personal as Ruben opens up about growing up between Norway and South London, coming out at 14, dealing with internalised homophobia, and struggling to fit in as both a queer and mixed-race person. Along the way, we discuss race, masculinity, self-expression, fashion, creativity, family dynamics, attachment styles, and how painting himself green became a symbol of embracing every part of who he is.

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