S1E14: Kruise Leeming - The Cost of Winning, Regret & Becoming a Better Man
Wigan Warriors rugby league star and former Leeds Rhinos captain Kruise Leeming joins me for an honest, powerful conversation about leadership, loss, identity, and emotional growth.At just eight years old, Kruise lost his dad and was immediately told he was now “the man of the house.” That moment shaped everything: his drive, his discipline, and his approach to sport and leadership. But as he opens up here, it also left scars.We explore:The pressure of early responsibilityThe cost of performance-first leadershipOwning past mistakes and letting go of guiltReconnecting with faith, vulnerability and inner peaceBecoming a better man — for himself and the people around himKruise speaks openly about the things he got wrong, the people he wishes he’d said sorry to, and how he’s learning to show up differently on and off the pitch.This episode goes beyond sport. It’s about identity, masculinity, grief, and the courage it takes to slow down and change.Show NotesKruise’s Journey into ManhoodLosing his father at age 8Taking on responsibility too youngBeing told: “You’re the man of the house now”His mum’s role in keeping him disciplinedSport as an Escape and a MirrorFinding rugby by chanceWhy individual sports weren’t enoughRealising rugby gave him belonging and identityFeeling seen for the first timeThe Drive to Succeed and What It CostHis obsession with performanceLeadership at Leeds and the emotional disconnectHow “winning” became a way to avoid feelingThe relationships and moments he regrets missingThe Turning PointGrace (his partner) giving him permission to be vulnerableStarting to question: “Why does that trigger me?”Stepping into real masculinity, not performative strengthFaith, Reflection and Slowing DownLosing belief in God – and slowly finding it againHow faith helps him see beauty in differenceLetting go of judgement and controlMentors, Father Figures and Role ModelsThe influence of his grandad and Gaz GreenwoodLearning discipline, respect, and how to carry yourselfThe power of being held to a high standardLeadership, Identity and the Work AheadLearning to lead without angerUnderstanding himself through CliftonStrengthsStarting to feel free to be himself again at WiganLooking ahead to life after rugby: speaking, coaching, and helping others