Figuring Sh!t Out

"and what can I say of prayer? except that it feels like clean air in my lungs. i sit and i vent and i cough up dirty water and blood and something holy makes me brand new. my heart aches and then it doesn’t. that is all I know."
this episode is for anyone who has no idea how to hear God, talk to God, is confused about what they believe about God, isn't confused but is looking for new perspectives on interacting with the sacred and holy, and for anyone who knows that learning to commune + communicate with the Creator of all things might just be in their benefit but has no idea where to start.
i share how prayer has evolved for me over the years and how it's become a life-boat, an anchor, something i cannot live without and i give you a framework to use prayer to invest deeper in a relationship with God.
my prayer for you in listening to this episode - is that it inspires you to begin or deepen a dialogue of your own with God.
something sacred, special, and just yours.
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Mentioned in the episode:
Traveling mercies - book by Anne Lamott
Podcast on Unanswered Prayer 

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learning to see yourself through God's eyes -
"Fearfully and Wonderfully made
Knit together
Created - breath by breath
and piece by piece
Gifted and anointed
Created Intentionally
And on Purpose
That is what your creator says about making you. 
And yet - you make yourself small when you enter into rooms that feel like they can’t hold your loud laugh and big heart
You shrink into smithereens when the person across from you darts their eyes to the other corner of the room while you’re in conversation
You ask yourself 
Am I smart enough? Interesting enough? Skinny enough? Pretty enough? 
Am I Enough?
And you forget 
That you were fearfully 
And wonderfully made
Knit together
Created breath by breath 
Piece by piece
Gifted and anointed
Created
Intentionally 
And on purpose"
What does it mean to be fearfully and wonderfully made, to know that you were created on purpose, and to see yourself through God’s eyes instead of the world’s? In this episode of Figuring Sh!t Out, we explore self-worth, identity, and the freedom of knowing you are deeply loved, intentionally created, and already enough.
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"tear your heart out of your chest - and give it to God. there is no other healing. i swear, there is no other healing." (Yasmin Mogahed)
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what if healing isn’t about becoming the most "aligned" version of yourself, but learning to receive a love greater than your own and surrender to the path created for you? what if you could stop treating yourself like a project to complete, and let God meet you in the parts of yourself you still struggle to love?
maybe we don’t just HEAL our inner child - maybe we learn to become children again.
to surrender the exhausting responsibility of being our own healer, our own source of love, our own answer to everything.
to let ourselves be held, guided, and transformed by a love we could never earn, but is freely given.
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plot twist: jesus.
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This episode is a confession, an homage to honesty, a bid of vulnerability on a deeply personal shift happening in my life that I've let through a couple of episodes but I haven't unearthed fully because -
Well,
I've been believing lies that have kept me scared and stuck.
Yes, even (ESPECIALLY) Miss.FiguringSh!tOutYapsALotPodcastHost has fear and doubt that chokes her up.
In this episode, I share what it’s like to find yourself standing between two voices:
The voice of fear and the voice of truth.
And how to discern between the two.
We touch on healing, EMDR, perfectionism, somatic work, and these hidden lies that keep us stuck long after we’ve outgrown them.
This is Figuring Sh!t Out - in it's deepest essence.
A real-time reflection on what it looks like to be unraveling the stories you've told yourself about who you are expected to be in order to survive, knowing that life is more than just surviving, and honoring that most of the things that scare the sh!t out of you don't just scare the sh!t out of you because of all that you have to lose -
But also, mostly, more importantly -
because of ALL that you have to gain.
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EMDR Episode 
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