In Totality with Megan Ashley

Can we love Jesus and still struggle with anxiety, depression, or OCD?
This week I’m joined by Emy Moore Brookins, host of the Saved Not Soft podcast and someone I love like a little sister, for a conversation about mental health, church hurt, and trusting God through suffering.
Emy opens up about recent diagnoses, her experience with spiritual abuse, and how she’s navigating therapy while remaining rooted in her faith. Together, we talk about the stigma surrounding mental health in Christian spaces, the freedom of being honest about what you’re facing, and what it looks like to seek help while trusting the Lord.
We discuss social media, the pressure to perform, and protecting intimacy with God while serving others, as well as living a faith that reaches beyond what we post online.
If you’re navigating church hurt, wrestling with your mental health, or trying to stay close to Jesus in a difficult season, my prayer is that this episode helps you feel less alone and encourages you to be honest with Him right where you are.
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This week on the show Jay, Jordan, Nicole and I talk through the difference between vengeance and vindication, what Scripture says about loving our enemies, and how remembering the mercy we’ve received through Christ changes the way we respond to offense.
One question really challenged me: What if our vindication actually looks like having peace, sleeping at night, and continuing in what God has called us to do?
We discuss how unforgiveness can hide behind time and distance. Just because you’ve stopped speaking to someone doesn’t mean you’ve released what happened. Forgiveness can take prayer, wrestling, and surrender, and forgiving someone doesn’t require staying in a harmful relationship.
If you’re struggling with betrayal, bitterness, a broken friendship, or the need to prove you were right, I pray this conversation helps you bring that hurt honestly before the Lord.
Before you move on with your day, pause and ask Him: “Lord, is there anyone I haven’t truly forgiven? Search my heart and help me surrender what I’m still holding.”
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Deconstructing Christianity isn’t always the same as walking away from God. Sometimes it could mean examining legalism, controlling traditions, or inherited beliefs so we can understand what Scripture actually teaches.

But what happens when we stop deconstructing false teaching and begin deconstructing the truth itself, rebuilding faith around our comfort, desires, or the opinions of people we admire online?

This week, I'm back with the team to talk about faith deconstruction, and the responsibility that comes with Christian Influence. Together, we discuss testing every voice against God’s Word, the consequence that comes with identifying, publicly, as a Christian, and why platform size does not determine whether you have influence.

The question is: Are our words pointing others toward Christ or giving them permission to compromise?

If you’re navigating doubt, or, stewarding a platform of your own, this episode is for you!
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What happens when a pastor, mentor, or Christian leader you admire falls, and your trust is shaken with them?

This week on In Totality, I’m joined by Christian apologist, author, and founder of the Jude 3 Project, Lisa Fields. Tune in for a conversation about healing after the people we admire disappoint us, without losing our faith, ignoring the harm done, or abandoning accountability.

Lisa opens up about the personal heartbreak behind her new book, When Heroes Fall: Healing from the Aftermath of Sin. Together, we talk about church hurt, broken trust, grief, and the difference between admiring someone and placing them where only God belongs.

If you’re processing disappointment with a Christian leader, navigating spiritual disillusionment, or grieving the fall of someone who helped shape your faith, this episode is for you.
My prayer is that this conversation gives you language for your grief, courage to examine your own heart, and hope to heal in godly community.

People may fail us, but Jesus never will. With His help, the hurt we experienced does not have to become harm we pass on to others.
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Hey Guys! This week on In Totality, I’m back with Jay, Jordan, and Nicole in my new home, reflecting on God’s faithfulness through a long season of prayer, waiting, closed doors, and unexpected provision.

For nearly two years, I prayed about where my boys and I should live, where they should attend school, and what God’s next step was for our family. There were opportunities that fell through, moments when we came close, and times when I wondered whether I had discerned God’s will correctly. But while it felt like nothing was happening, God was preparing details, and people I couldn’t see.

If you’re waiting for God to move in a relationship, job opportunity, health situation, a relocation decision, or any other unanswered prayer, this episode is for you.

My prayer is that this conversation encourages you to stay close to the Lord, remain faithful with what He has already placed in your hands, and trust that He is working even when you cannot see it.

God is always working!
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